The Real Her
By Amanda Leonard
Her disposition was different as she walked into the living room. Her wet little feet soaking the carpet and her towel wrapped around her skinny little eight year old frame. “Momma”, she said and then paused, I could already feel the seriousness of what was she was about to say.
“Momma, I don’t feel like myself. I said something yesterday that was not me. I said something bad about someone and that’s not who I am.”
This Momma’s heart skipped a beat, as I watched her have an epiphany, she was seeing the REAL her. She realized while in the tub that what she had said the day before did not align with her original design, the her that was created by the Father.
Sadie said she asked the Lord for forgiveness. She told me that He said He was not upset, He was so excited that she realized that that was not the real her. He was glad she came to Him and did not run from Him. He also told her about the power of her words and to be careful what flows from her lips.
This same little girl today was so moved with compassion that our whole table at the Mexican restaurant was moved to tears, sobs actually. My aunt Becky Meyers was in pain, as she’s been battling cancer and Sadie was sitting across from her. I watched as her face changed and she pushed her plate away from her because she couldn’t eat anymore. She put her head on the table and began to cry, this was more than just emotion, it was deeper. Her emotions were stirred but she was moved with real compassion and love for her great aunt so much that she felt her pain. She hugged Becky’s neck and they embraced and cried, we all cried. She was with her in her pain and the Lord began to speak to me so clearly about the body of Christ and what it truly means to say, “I’M WITH YOU”. Sadie couldn’t say a word but her heart was wide open and we could all read it loud and clear.
Our Father is so amazing and He’s sooo BIG in our little ones. I learn so much from them, as I watch their relationship with the Father grow. There’s no junior Holy Spirit. He showed Sadie her true identity as His daughter, as the real her and taught her without me even saying a word. I’m overwhelmed by His love and goodness.